In honor of graduation week, I thought I would try to prepare myself a little for the days quickly ahead of me.  This was Senior Appreciation Day at school.  They got called out one by one and they walked across the arena and got their cords.  The announcer called the students' name one by one and told where they were going to college and how much various college scholarships they were awarded.

I was worried that I might cry and could feel my emotions getting the best of me.  I was letting it all sink to my gut that Sadie was close to graduating, which would mean she would be out of the house in a few short months.  Then Sadie sent me a message before it was her turn to walk out.  She was so mad that a student had monogrammed their cap when it was against the rules.  She was livid because this student gets special treatment and she didn't think it was fair that the rules specifically said not to put anything on or decorate your cap or gown in any way and this student had done it anyway.  

That's all I could think about when she walked across the floor.  I could see it all over her face.  She was disgusted.  

The announcer got her scholarship information all wrong which also fueled Sadie's fire.  She almost had smoke coming out of her ears by the time she sat down in her seat. 

I was so mad at her that I didn't even get emotional during the whole ceremony.  I was aggravated at her because she always usually always allows little things ruin her big things.  She just can't enjoy the moment.  

But afterwards, I did thank her because she saved me the emotional stress of the day because she had my emotions routed in another direction.  I politely asked her to piss me off before the ceremony the day of graduation.  

But my emotions are all over the place this week.  It's reality.  I realize that life will be different.  Not that it's over or awful, but it will never be the same again.  So, I quickly push all of that out of brain when it bubbles back up to the top.  I mean, I'm trying to enjoy the big things instead of concentrating on the little things.

This is Sadie's friend, Evan.  They have gone to school together since the beginning.  He is a pretty funny guy and cracks me up regularly.  I like Evan.

We met Jonathan at the school the other evening and he took some graduation pictures of Sadie.  I am almost broke from all of the pictures we have had made this year.  

But I know she will love them when she gets older even more than I do now.

Here is one of them... More to come.....