The Chronicles of Amy

6th Grade and Kindergarten

First day of school was the day that everything hit me. Sophie was a little nervous and Molly was nervously excited. Everyone woke up good, got dressed, and was happy. It was raining but you couldn't tell it by the rays of sunshine running around our house.

Before we hit the back door, I rounded them up for a first day of school picture. That's when it hit me.

Sadie wasn't there.

Year after year we have done 'first day of school picture' on the first day of school. It was sad to me that Sadie wasn't going to be there on the first day of school this year. Or Ever.

So the tears started flowing.

But worse than that, they wouldn't stop. We made the circle and dropped Sophie off first at the elementary school. She jumped out raring to go. Then we made our way to the primary school. It is customary for me to walk my girls in on the first day of Kindergarten. (I would probably do it every year if they would let me) When we started down the hallway, it hit me. Just like the other two times, it broke my heart.

I'm so glad that my girls are able to go to school. I know that they will be fine. I don't understand why it breaks my heart on the first day of Kindergarten. But it does. Every time.

Molly walked right in and was fine, of course. She put her backpack on her hook and looked at us like "go ahead, I'm fine." We got a picture of her and Mrs. Blue again and away we went. I cried all the way home.

I did compose myself and went to work after a little while. I wanted to stay home and wallow in my self pity all day, but I couldn't.

I was excited about these pictures that Mrs. Blue has been posting on Facebook. It gives me a glimpse into her day and it puts faces with the names of the kids that she is talking about.